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| Photo from captured enemy-documents. |
There are triggers to his pains. He gets bothered when he
hears news about the CPP’s student recruitment in universities,
sharing the pain – but also guilt – when parents talk about their
missing children.
“Why do we recruit the children of the masses while some
cadres prevent their children and don’t commit them to the
revolution? That is unfair. The children of the masses we recruit
die and go missing, their families get destroyed but when it’s
their [the CPP-NPA-NDF leaders] families, many cadres protect
their children from being recruited and affected. It contributed
to my demoralization when I realized that what I am doing
already is no longer principle-based but driven by greed. These
thoughts led me to fully realize that the Marxist-Leninist-Maoist
ideology I embraced for almost 30 years was a utilitarian tool
and not a principle for moral salvation. It was a nightmarish
experience for me to finally come to my senses that everyone
and everything in the CPP is good only when you’re needed,
or when you’re useful to the leaders and can serve their goals.
Everyone and everything is dispensable and expendable – this
is the true essence and reality of utilitarianism,” Victor added.
--THE WARS WITHIN (2020 / Copy&Share)
